i hate coming to the realization that this “thing” i’m doing with the cute boy might be fizzling out. we lost our momentum. our schedules are crazy and he lives 30 minutes outside of town. if we really wanted to make it work, it would. it’s not from a lack of trying on my part. so many arrows point to no, to just give up, but for some reason i’m just not ready yet. there are a lot of things about him that i like and there’s a lot of baggage that i just don’t want any part of at the same time. i feel like he has unfinished business with the ex, and that his head is still in that relationship. just say NO, right? do i even bother having a conversation about this stuff, or do i just walk away and say to myself “good try. i’m proud of you for getting out of the corner you’ve been in for years.” is it bad that my standards are set high? i’m sorry, but i don’t really want to be dating someone who has to drink every night to not feel bad about themselves. i want to date someone who is as confident as me and has goals and ambitions. when do i find that person? but to be fair i’ve been pretty lazy about trying but it’s hard when you live in neverland and every boy just wants to be peter pan.